Now as I look back to walking the 100kms for Heads Together I can reflect on the difficulties and the personal rewards that such an event presented for me.
Waves of euphoria surge through my body, explosive bouts of energy allow me to move and my limbs pump with energy. I want to live here, it is a place of all knowing, I am manically obsessed. Small incidental thoughts become wondrous worlds to focus my imagination. I see with absolute clarity, acute detail and grandiose schemes are all seen with equal precision.
Even in the midst of this epiphanic state however, another part of my mind knows that my body is failing, permanence becomes temporary, euphoria turns to despondence and even my transcendental mind becomes incapable of simple thought. My lower body detaches from me as though it is no longer mine. In its place is only pain and even small movements take everything I have. I am dependant on the next wave of euphoria.
I can see a correlation to the struggles that Reuben, my son who lives with an ABI, has had to go through and continues to go through everyday. I chose to challenge myself, to push past the point where my body said stop. For Reuben he has no choice. Reuben meets challenge face on and with a beautiful smile. Reuben inspires me more than he knows. Heads Together support Reuben, they support myself and my family. Together as a team we all supported each other to walk 100kms and in doing so I feel as though I am better person.